Wat a Day...

I can tell you guys, today is definitely not my day... wat i say, he don believe, watever i say he tot it is ridiculous, wat i told him, he thinks i talk rots... i'm very frustrated and very disappointed.

My mum, she was a very good example already, only O levels, nothing more, when she joined SMIT, she only have O levels, a computer illiterate, don even now what is sms, doesn't even have any experience in port net, logistics, chemicals or even manning ppl. she was only a small admin clerk in her prev job which she happily worked for 9 yrs, moreover, she asked for a pay of $2000 knowing she has absolutely no experience. And guess wat, she got the job. My mum was 35 then. Hey come on man how can that be possible, where got such good luck? U must be thinking of that but with the Gohonzon, nothing is impossible. She chanted sincerely for a job with a good pay so that she can actually support the company because my dad wasn't even working at that time. At that time, i was still in sec sch and my sis was going into sec sch soon, things was hard for my family because there are so many debts my family landed into. Life was very hard and frugal, we were constantly living in a nightmare that one day my dad will be declared a bankrupt, but thanks to my mum and her chanting ok, if not now we also can't pull through. But its not over yet...

Now, that i'm 21, I'm going to have the first debt of my life on me soon, I have a 60k school fees to worry over, why? coz i'm preparing to go to lasalle to pursue my deg in dance, why u think with my current job i will want to go study something absolutely nothing to do with wat i work as? simple. because i cannot find my mission of life there. i don wish to work in a place which i will slowly and gradually lose my humanity and interest. I want a work where allows me to contribute to kosen rufu full time. nothing can be more happy than to see others embrace the way to true happiness, the Gohonzon and the Lotus Sutra is the only thing in the world which can bring that happiness, it is through my chanting that i made this decision. Why is the gohonzon good? because it brings out ur inherent potential to be buddha and bring forth courage and wisdom that will help u in making the right judgement in ur life. and we are all working for true world peace that will last forever. we are an organization who wants to bring about peace through education and culture... coz peace is never peace when ppl cannot disable arms.

I just want to make it clear, if he doesn't want to put wat i taught him into action, i shall not say to him anythings anymore because wat i say falls on deaf ears. wisom is not calculated in yrs. this is all i can say.

- Himeno