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Hihi... (If anyone is even still reading..)

Wow, its already 5th April 2008.... Its been a year already...

I can't believe how time flies...

From the last time I have blogged til date, so many things has happened and all these time I haven't been blogging... >.<

Firstly, the last blog I published on 11th Apr 2007, I was still working at SP Services. However, I've left the company on May 07 and moved on to Tyco Fire, Security & Services Pte Ltd. I was working contract there til Dec 07 and I decided I should leave and try something else totally... So I moved on to Taka Jewellery on Jan 08. BUT! only 3 weeks into the job I quickly decided the job is absolutely not my cup of tea. I'm simply convicted that I'm not cut for any form of sales job. So back I am in Tyco on Feb 08. Until today I've been here already for 2 months. ^.^

Its a lovely time back at Tyco. At least I know I am doing a good job working on my end as I am already used to the jobs I've been doing before I left. In terms of career I think i'm considered quite alright, just that these entire month I felt like going through a crazy month. There are a sudden surge of calls from our retail customers with their faults ranging from as a small a matter as timing is wrong on the DVR to big security issues like unable to arm at all. The worst is having loads of calls with panel beeping. Sigh, its like crazy no. of jobs my technicians get everyday...

Enough about work. My family is doing quite well. Again, something crazy happened to my family side. Firstly, my Aunt June went into the hospital, something to do with her stomach. Then next bad news came was Aunt Cindy, my Aunt's business partner and good friend just passed away so suddenly. How fragile is life. Every moment someone passes away. So I've learnt to live life to the fullest.

Last of all, I have separated from my husband. I think enough is enough. I don't need to suffer anymore. Though it is with great sadness that I have to do this. No matter what, he is unrepentent... I will not regret my decision. However I only regret that the marriage have to turn out this way...

My short story that normally accompany my posts will be coming to an end soon as there is no more reason for me continue it anymore. By the way, I've adopted a new Japanese name to replace my existing name of Kurasaki Himeno. Now i'm Kuroda Chiharu (can't write japanese coz of my window software problem...) Hime will still be my nickname though... =)

So, that's all for now...

Signing off...

- Hime -

Happy Moments, Sad Moments....

Hi hi,

wow... its been a really long time since i last post again....

THIS time i got lots to update....

First of all, I have successfully went for the HDB 1st appt, I would be getting my house keys sometime in May... Then it would be time to renovate my house.... House warming cum wedding celebration would be sometime in July... I would be doin my customary around that time....

Next, I just went for the STar DJ Search which happened on 07.04.07... Well, I think I didn't do too well and probably wont get in.... LOL... but it is good experience and I had fun.... Well, now waiting for 13.04.07 to know the result of this event liao....

Then next, the baby dragon is born.... a cute chubby little dragon, but if he don take care he will become obese and then he will lose his wings well at least thats what he knows, so nowadays he is working his physique lo... Well, our baby dragon should be able to make it ba... lol...

And next... a whole bunch of ppl has left... Niisan also known as meng feng also known as the chibi ryu has left, daniel has left, chris has left, ellie also left, shao fen, literally the temps have left lo... Aiya, expected de, after all, this is a call centre and I believe all call centres in SG is facing the same prob becoz sgians generally don like to be in the service line lo... Kids, wat i wanna say is, got a job don too hiam, next time u would noe what is called its hard to find a job of ur dreams lo.... Lol.... Now i sound like an ah ma..... >.<>.<

Ok thats abt the updates I have for now... Til next time~~

- Hime -

New Yr, New Hope?? Hope so...

Hi all,

Once again Hime is here to post about something...

Well, Its already yr 2007, I guess this is my first post since the start of the new yr.

Rite now I am literally slacking at home doing nothing because I am transiting between jobs... So rite now i am just helping out at my aunt's factory when she need help or i'm just helping out at PCBunk when Kenneth needs help... To me i just wanna spend my time away doing something, coz thats the only way i wont think about anything...

I realised when I am too free, i start to think about alot of things and they all lead to depressive thoughts... I dunno why my hubby just cannot understand me... Today He just told me that I am like a kid. This leads me to think that he thinks i am stubborn and childish. I felt so sad and hurt lo... I've always been trying my best in everything I do for him but why do i always feel that he has never appreciated whatever I have done? When i think about his health, I told him to cut down on his smoke, even to quit, he thinks that I am just obstructing him, at least thats the message i derived from his actions. It has led me to the extent of giving up on asking him to quit smoking... Yet he says that i have never been considerate for him, I have never tot of him before myself. This also leds me to think that he feels I have not given enuff, that i am selfish. But I felt I have given so much I have nothing more to give, I feel so empty nowadays that I dunno what I should do...

Right now as i think about my future with him, I am starting to get even more depressive. I really worry wat will happen when i start to have his child. What will happen then, will i be even lonlier? I understand how pregnant woman think and feel when they enter pregnancy. Those were the times when they think alot and thats when we start to lose our self-esteem because our body changes over the months. I really scared his heart will change because of my behavior when I am pregnant in the future... Its really very frustrating for me but yet I feel a sadness when I think about such things...

This yr I chanted for happiness for myself. I really dunno what I should do anymore... I just cannot help feeling sad... I have been feeling very very sad that I would cry myself to sleep a few nights in a week. I also dunno why but I just wanna cry... But I don dare to cry my heart out because I don wan to worry my family... I'm really going crazy le... I feel so much like killing my ownself... How?? Life feels so meaningless to me nowadays. If not because of him, I think I am already dead...

But I really hope things will change this yr... I have enuff of being weak le... I wan to be strong... I hope I have the wisdom to handle whatever is coming next ba....

Guess thats all for now... Nitez...

- Hime -

As dawn breaks and the birds shook their wings and sang, Youichi was already awake and ready to catch the first light of dawn. Sun rise has always been something he never missed as it signifies the start of a brand new day and he has always felt hopeful when the rising sun painted the night sky with a rosy pink which gradually lightened into a fiery orange upon a light blue sky.

As always, Youichi spent the night among the tree tops and next to a lake that was formed from a freshwater stream that has flowed from the great alps. Sleeping in the tree tops ensured that he would be safe during that night as he would be out of sight. Waking up beside a lake would mean that he can have a bath followed by breakfast. If he was ever so lucky, he would even have enough for lunch.

As per his daily routine, he walked over to the lake and was about to strip off his top to get into the lake when he sensed the presence of void killers. Kazu, void killers in the forest. At least 4 of them. said Youichi to Kazuya urgently. Void killers in the day. I wonder who sent them. There are not many who could control them. Only the dark lords were able to do so. I wondered who sent them here and the purpose of doing so. replied Kazuya half in thought. Youichi proceed to feint ignorance of the void killers and jumped into the lake with his top tied around his waist.

As he swam around, he treated as though the void killers are not around and he is just going about his daily routine. But in his mind, he has been trading back and forth tactics with Kazuya. As they finally settled down with the tactic, Youichi took a deep breath and dived into the depths of the lake. After diving for 10 metres, Youichi hovered and calmed his racing heart down. He then chanted the scriptures of delay spell cast and also wrapped his aura around himself to form his armour. At the same time, Kazuya materialized in the water and took on the form of the great Dragon. I'm ready, lets go. was all Youichi said to Kazuya. Kazuya propelled himself upwards with a swish of his tail and brought himself and Youichi out of the water. Just as expected, the Void Killers were already positioned to take him on the moment he surfaced. Just this time round, Youichi and Kazuya managed to surprise the void killers in their face when water from the lake blasted from the centre of the lake and splased all over them.

Youichi let go of Kazuya's horned spine and leapt for the nearest void killer in the open. While in the air, Youichi called for his black katana which came forth from his left arm. He made a semi circle turn in the air and prepared to deal a downward stroke from his position in the air. The void killer he was aiming for immediately blocked the strike and due to the force from the strike, its knees collapsed into the soft ground of the lakeside. Youichi never stopped for a second and continued his attacks on the void killer. Under his breath, he chanted the Chains of Wind and quietly released the spell onto the unsuspecting void killer who was too busy blocking Youichi's onslaught. When it came to realise of the spell, it was too late. Chains of Wind wrapped itself tightly around the void killer's body and squeezed tightly as though a python killing its prey. The void killer was instantly killed by the sheer pressure of the spell and shattered into dust.

Thats one down, three more to gosaid Youichi with a little arrogance. As he was leaping away to engage the next void killer, Kazuya let out an ear piercing scream and dropped from the skies into the lake. Youichi too fell where he stood, a needle seemed to have pierced the back of his neck and he was fast losing consiousness. He turned his face from the possible direction where he could have been shot and saw the Wise Woman standing among 2 void killers. The remaining 3 void killers has already gathered to her and she was smirking at him. Kazu, you alright? Youichi sent an anxious thought to Kazuya. I'm alright, just that I've ben pierced by a great needle and it has paralyzed me. assured Kazuya. Youichi, glad that Kazuya was safe, turned his attention back to the Wise Woman who stood among the shades.

He silently prayed for his blessed armour to be activated and internally be purged of the aneasthetic. But this is a long process and what he did not have was time. "Wise Woman of the Drake Tribe, I was about to return to you to report of the mission to you. Apparantly, I've been having abit of trouble here." said Youichi in an attempt to gamble for time. "Well, now that I'm here my child, why don't you start to tell me all that you have known." replied the Wise Woman in a malicious tone. Youichi struggled to sit up and managed to do so, he looked the Wise Woman in her eye and saw her desire to kill him for something. Youichi then sent out an inquiring thought to Kazuya, Are you alright now? I need your assistance. Yeah, I'm fine and ready to move now. replied Kazuya with some verve. Kazuya then shot out of the lake and moved towards the direction where Youichi sat. He merged his soul with Youichi's katana and Youichi was immediately filled with renewed energy. He immediately stood up and leapt for the trees. As it was day, it was not easy for him to stealth but he managed and moved among the tree tops.

The Wise Woman was infuriated when she realised that her quarry has took off. She sent ten void killers to chase after Youichi, giving special instructions to Celes her servant as well as the captain of the void killers to bring back Youichi's heart. Celes set off after the Youichi and the Wise Woman gave orders to return to her hut.

Youichi knew he was getting chased down very fast as the anaesthetics in him was still not entirely cleared, his speed has been greatly reduced by that. He had no choice but to wheel about the engage two of the fastest void killers who were catching up with him. He rushed head on and chanted for the Flaming Petals. He released the petals of fire upon the apporaching void killers and rushed along with the petals. This created some confusion but it was effective enough. The two void killers were slashed through in their mid section and they immediately crumbled to dust. Youichi was about to turn and continue fleeing when he realised that he has been surrounded by 6 other void killers and also their captain. The captain made a salutation and proceed to introduce himself. "I am Celes, captain of void killers. I've been sent by the Wise Woman to get something from you. Now it would be wise that you don struggle, I promise it would be quick." "Now what makes you think that I would be so easily defeated, you god-forsaken creatures. I will never give in to the likes of you!" roared Youichi as he launched a fireball at Celes and rushed towards Celes. Celes smirked and gently tapped off the fireball coming in his way using his left hand as his right hand went to his sword and drew it out to block Youichi's strike. "Such arrogance. You are nothing more than a midget to me young lad." replied Celes mockingly. "We shall see who has the last laugh." replied Youichi in anger as the two man locked their swords in place.

The void killers moved into formation and launched their attacks on Youichi. Having only himself and Kazuya, he knew he is badly outnumbered. Despite the continous attacks, he managed to hold. But he soon tire due to the remnants of the anaesthetics as they continued their onslaught on him. Cuts and bruises start to appear on his body where he wasn't able to block in time. He knew he had to do something if not he would really be killed. Youichi gathered his remaining energy and chanted for Ring of Fire and blast it outwards. The six void killers were immediately killed and turned to dust. Celes stood out of harm's way but was looking extremely furious. Never has anyone managed to create such a blast before. Celes then launched his own attacks at Youichi who was already badly injured. Youichi parried his every attack as much as he could but soon he realised that he has been pushed to the edge of a cliff. After using so much energy on the Ring of Fire, he knew he has nothing left for another spell. Yet deep in him, he suddenly felt the presence of raw energy flowing into him as though a cool stream of water was making its way down parched throats. He grabbed onto the energy and chanted for Spirit of Wind to protect him. He launched himself off the cliff and hurtled into the fast moving stream. Celes who couldn't swim shouted his fury at Youichi for losing his prey and sweared that he will get him for sure.

Satisfied that Celes was not able to follow him and he was safe for the moment, Youichi sank into deep darkness and followed the course of the river to wherever the river might bring him. In the darkness, Youichi saw the vision he seen in the white light. He embraced the vision and fell into a deep sleep.

New job incoming...

Hi to all who read my blog (If there is any)

Last time I have confirmed with you guys that I'm going to ROM le... That would be 31/01/07. So sorry peeps, I wont be having a wedding banquet because we don't think it is feasible. But not to worry to celebrate my special day, I will invite you guys over when our house is ready and we are doing our ceremonial weding stuffs. There will be buffet for sure. So hope you guys (who are reading my blog) be available sometime in April ba...

Anyways, back to the topic, I'm leaving GDIS coming new yr. I've secured a job as CSO still with SP Services. Much higher pay, much more challenges. At least I'm glad I would be able to settle my financial problem. With 1 worries down, I can finally settle my career life le...

Actually this time round also not much update lar, so I guess you guys have to wait til next time le...

Til then...

- Hime -

As the first snow fell and the winter winds blew, Kaze was packing his stallion for the journey to the Stronghold of Regar.

Inuka, Could you scout ahead for me to see what is the weather like? asked Kaze as he gazed into the sky with bits of snow falling from the greyish blue sky. It felt as though there would be a snow storm coming my way. I'll be on my way. replied Inuka.

As Inuka took off and soared on the morning breeze, Kaze's thoughts went back to the dream vision and the scene of destruction. Just this morning when he sent his thoughts to the sky, he saw the enemy moving along the rivers on the way to Stronghold of Regar, they are about two days march away. He knew he has to do something to stop the marching savages from rampaging the Stronghold and he is but a one day's ride away from the Stronghold. He decided to intercept the savages along the way.

Kaze, there wouldn't be any storms until midnight, judging from the clouds though, there will be freezing cold winds coming your way. Tonight would be a good night to strike those god-damned creatures. said Inuka while circling and gliding on the gentle wind above Kaze's head. Well, sounds good to me. I'm done here, lets go. replied Kaze as he stride his horse and rode out of the holding. As he reached a mile away, he stopped his horse and wheeled around to face his home. He chanted under his breath the scripture of protection and invisibility and cast the enchantment upon his home to keep his home safe. It has been a long time since he last stepped upon the roads. Unfortunately, this would be the last time he ever see his home in his eyes and in his heart. Somehow, the foreboding feeling from his dream sight came back to him again, but this time he felt it drawing nearer and nearer as though death has it's scythe against his neck, ready to take his life anytime.

The Next Phase of My Life....

Well, its been a rather long time since i last updated my Blog... Again....

Haha, well, this time, there are alot of things to shock those who are reading it...

Firstly, Me and my bf are going to get married soon. The ROM date is already set on 31/01/2007. Haha, sorry that we are not doing any banquet and stuff like that, after all we like simplicity, but not to worry... We will be throwing a house warming cum wedding celebration at our house when its up... So my dear friends, pls keep urself in contact with me. Sorry ah, lately I have changed my HP no. So it will be a little hard to find me...

As to me and my fiance, hmmm, he has toned down alot although at times he will still lose his temper of little things lar, but most of the time I do realise it is my fault, but really, sometimes its hard to say sorry lo... Anyways, I still love him alot....

Anyways, enough of that.... A little something about work, seems like i have found the momentum to help me tide through my work, last month I came down with insomnia... Sigh, for now, I am still recovering bit by bit but its much much better le.... At least i get to sleep at night nowadays... Another of my colleague, Beng Hwa has left GDIS le, I was wondering why is GDIS's turnover rate so high, but anyways, two more new colleagues has came onboard and they are Gabbie and Shadrini, of course, Gabbie quickly became one of my close colleagues at work, my relationship with my colleagues at GDIS are getting better and better of coure... Another thing I am happy about is my call audit and work performance, I'm told I have been doing quite well with my audits and the QSM has commented that I have good work knowledge... Hee, seems like I would be looking towards being the next professional CSO le... Really hope I would be able to help my CC get an award next year with my work performace... =)

Ok, thats about all for now... Will try to update as much as I can in future... =)

- Hime -

Whew that was close. Man what has happened back there. Thought Youichi, as he glided to the safety of the forest where darkness would conceal him as though he belonged to her. Youichi was the stealth swordsman who was sent by the Draco Tribe to assasinate and retrieve the piece of the seal from the Falconer's Princess. Although Youichi was sent by them, he has knew all along that he never belonged to the tribe full of serpent-like people. He unlike them had no scales to hide. On top of that, he is linked in mind to a dragon that curled around his upper torso as a tattoo when deactivated, the dragon-being although disabled is mind-linked with him. Just like the Falconers who has a spiritual bond with their Gyrfalcons, he has a spiritual link with his Dragon.

Draco Tribe used to be a faction among the Grand Dragon Tribe which has prospered and was around since the start of time. The Grand Dragon Tribe had many factions within itself and the drakes were among them. The tribe disintegrated about 20 years ago due to the uprising of the Drakes supported by the Dragon of Destruction which has caused the downfall and extermination of the Grand Dragon Tribe, the royals of the tribe were massacred and Youichi was the sole survivor of the massacre. The Wise Woman of the Drakes pleaded for his life stating that this child has some use to the Drakes, hence the reason why he was spared.

Although he grew up under the care of the Wise Woman and was trained in the ways of the assasin and swordmanship of which he flourished due to his stature and his agile body, he knew he never belonged to the Drakes. When he turned 13 winters old, with powers that were lost when the last of the royal bloodlines was killed. The skills he gained thru the awakening actually assisted him in many of his assignments which made him one of the top assasin in the tribe.

Kazu, That was really close. I wonder why she was able to call help without making any noise. Youichi enquired with his Dragon Kazuya. Silly you. She is linked to her Gyrfalcon, remember? replied Kazuya who sounded like a father who's impatient with his slow son. Oh. Damn I forgotten. But isn't she beautiful? All my life the woman I've seen are all covered with scales, rarely would I see such fair maidens in front of me. Moreover, one who is fair and dared to fight back. replied Youichi ruefully and with a note of admiration in his tone. Then recalling the white light and scenes that played within the white light, Youichi changed, Kazu, there was a white light just now when I was drawing near enough to land her the blow and there was a series of scenes which played in the light. The girl somehow looked really familiar. But, heck, now I'm gonna get into trouble for not getting the seal. Kazu, lets go back.

But what Youichi did not know was, he was being watched by the Wise Woman of the Drakes and she was finally able to confirm that the last piece of the Seal was hidden in him. It was only when the Seals of the Azure Skies come close to each other, that there would be a response which results in the white light. The Wise Woman broke from her scrying trance and called for her apprentice. There are lots of things to be done.

Life goes on....

Hmmm...

Its already 4 mths of our relationship le...

Many things to update since my last post...

Last when I posted, I've said that I'm already working, well, rite now, i'm working as a CSO (Customer Service Officer) in GDIS. Been here for already 3 mths le... Work here is tough and stressful because everyday we need to pick up calls, keep up service level, hear callers scream into our ears... lol... But I love working with my team and take up this challenge.

Too bad, Callyn would be leaving GDIS le... I think i will miss her alot... after all, she is a very nice and friendly person... But really hope she can excel in her future career...

Also, things have gone up and down in my relationship over the past 4 mths. I feel i really sux as as gf. Til now i still cannot understand him. He is just so short tempered sometimes i really dunno why i got snapped at. When you least expect it, he will stunt you... Sigh... But i love him alot... To me although he is short tempered, I feel that he is still my perfect hubby after all. I myself know i can never be perfect. Perhaps i am just too wilful and stubborn at times. Its true, i am a very egoistic person, with an attitude to always win. I think other than this there is really nothing good about me... At times i truly wondered why was I ever born....

But i also cant blame anyone. This is my life after all. My family took great pains to bring me up and especially my mum took the most pain of all, as my mother, I feel she has really done her best to try and understand me and make sure i grow up to be well and healthy.... I guess I am just born to learn things the hard way ba...

Anyways, hope things will turn out well in times to come... I really hope that I can understand my dear better...

Take heart ba Hime.... =)

- Hime -

"What makes you think I will give that up to you so easily? To get it, you would have to kill me." replied Hime coldly. At that moment, there was a mental tug from Gale with the mental picture stating that her league of seven is ready outside her tent in her aid. While Hime held on to the link with Gale, the stealth swordsman glided towards her and drew his black katana, its as though the dream vision is playing in front of Hime now, the stranger was in no time in front of Hime and about to plunge his sword when a bright flash of light encompassed both of them.

In the white light, Hime saw a girl sauntering carefreely around a swordsman donned in his black dragon scaled armour as they strolled along the riverside caring not a thing in the world. The scene then quickly changed to a battlefield where the armoured swordsman was hacking his way with many others to get to the Dark Lord where the girl was lying half conscious on the dark marbled alter like a sacrificial item. The Dragon Lord held in his hand the Key of Destruction, ready to plunge the dagger into the girl's heart at the right timing. The swordsman and his brethren worked hard at the obstacle in their way and managed to get to the Dragon Lord. The swordsman then chanted the barrier of light and encompassed the girl just as the Dragon Lord lifted the dagger to strike. The light then brought them to the next scene whereby the swordsman and his brethren lay dying due to exhaustion and mundane wounds, the Dragon Lord was trapped within the dimension sphere under their efforts and unable to escape, the girl awoke from her semi consiousness and stumbbled towards the swordsman, knowing its the end soon. With her life force and the remaining life force of the swordsman and his brethren, she sealed the Dragon Lord and banished him to the depths of the earth, determined that he never be found again, the Seal of Azure Skies was thus formed. With her final strength, she spoke to the Mage Elder of Grea Falconia and told him to break the Seal of Azure Skies and send it to the ends of Grea Falconia. Then the girl's eyes blanked out as she and the swordsman wove their final skein of life with the starlight that has started to shine upon the lands with its first brilliance and dissipated with the light.

The white light which encompassed them gradually faded away with the stealth swordsman holding in front of her heart his black katana. Hime immediately tapped away the tip of the katana and urgently informed Gale to enter the tent. Her Justice League was fast to enter the tent and quickly surrounded the stealth swordsman, knowing odds were against himself, the stealth swordsman went into stealth mode and disappeared before their very eyes.

The Justice League were about to give chase when Hime called out, "Its ok I am not harmed, leave it be." "But he almost killed you." Neki responded in part concern, part anger. "Its ok, i'm fine. Something interesting happened back here, anyways, thanks for coming to my help. There is something about the assasin I need to think about, I'll see you guys tomorrow. Please rest." Hime assured her friends and watched them left her tent with Neki the last to leave and eyes full of worries.

At last when all was silent again, Hime informed Gale that she has things to ponder upon and abruptly blocked her companion out of her mind. She then lay down on her fur pallet. She then invoked something she has yet used for a long time, the enchantment which allowed her to relive the sights that were in her mind and at her will allow her to regulate the speed at which things were showing, there was something about the swordsman and the girl she felt weirdly familiar with. As she drifted into the first stream of the spells, she felt her self leaving behind the mundane body and drifted towards a white light, at the end of it, the scene of the girl sauntering around the swordsman, this time she paused the scene and looked closely, then with a gentle shock, she realised the girl bears her face when she would be mature and a ruder shock when the swordsman she saw was the face of the stealth swordsman in his older years, the face aged but the shape and the definitions was definitely him.

Satisfied that she has seen enough, Hime returned to her body and sleep immediately took her. Her thoughts then surrounded on many questions and mysteries that she has to solve. Of which the greatest of all is, what has her life got to do with this man she has seen in her tent this night, what destinies await them.

Love Grows....

Hmmm, nothing much eventful happened of late... but what intrigues me is the fact that I have found my hubby so suddenly... Its as if I have found the one in my life I was fated to meet and yet took me so so long to find....

It seems that a strong force is binding me and him together... Love for us is growing strong... its as if we have already known each other for a long long time, way before we ever met... The feeling is like we are continuing a love thats started before this life ever started.... To me its a really mystical and wonderful feeling....

Both of us are already planning for marriage and family in 3 yrs to come... I'm in truth, very very excited about my future with him... Because there is absolutely no one else i would wan but him... I really found my happiness around him.

Its almost 2 months le... I love him even more strongly... But recently, alot of things have been happening to me... first off is my termination with acid's events management... I feel like fighting a case really soon... Time's getting very very bad for me at the moment. On top of that I've got to work as a CSO in a call centre, lot's of stress was on me... Next thing is lasalle's prob... I heard that due to not properly withdrawing from school, I've been asked to pay $7000 semester school fees... Its simply ridiculous because I've not even been in school for a long long time... Sigh... Lastly, its me and him...

I do not know how things started to go wrong and straining both of us... It seems that lately its either he gets angry or its me... I'm totally stressed beyond my treshold le... Today I just broke down.... Then we talked things out.... But I've been constantly unable to project and express myself easily so I guess alot of people are actually very cautious around me.... I seek no warmth at work and definitely no warmth from any of my frenz since they have left me.... Frankly speaking I feel kinda lonely now because i have no frenz at all... But truely speaking, I don care anymore le... Now that I got Youichi, I intend to forsake any frenz that I have... Youichi is really the only one I would ever need le... Ppl say "Til Death do us part." For me and him... Death will never part us anymore... This life we have been thru so much just to be together... Next life I would not want to wait so long anymore....

Right now I am a Trainee Shinigami le... In yrs to come I will definitely be as powerful as him... I vow to catch up with him because we have so much things in this life to protect... Its with my life I shall protect our future... But if really time comes, I'm sorry my love, I will give my life for the one sword that will change the destiny that we are being led into. This is my gift for our future... A future that my future generations will live in peace with.... That sword is the key to end this oncoming war... Youichi I love u. Please remember, no matter wat happens, my heart shall live with you forever and that I will be waiting for you to find me once more in our next life. Love you always.

- Hime -

In the darkest hour of the night, Kaze had a dream vision. This vision was once again the vision of his destiny, the future that is coming upon him. A war torn land lay ahead of him and there he stood with Inuka amongst the bodies of fellow Falconers with their gryfalcons and army of the Feline Tribe. Without the Seal of Azure Skies, the other way the Dragon of Destruction himself could be released is by working on the blood spilled on the lands surrounding the very fortress. As its said, only destruction can weaken the seal in order for the seal to break. He stood alone facing the great mass of undead raised by the mages of the Draco Tribe. The mages were busy at work, using the blood of the falconers that spilt the land to re-create the key that would unseal the Dragon lord himself. At the sound of the war horn being blown. Kaze chanted and a blast of fire shot out in front of him, clearing the mob that came charging at him. Immediately, he slowly and purposefully walked in the midst of the charging mob and at the same time cast winds of destruction around him. None of the undead were able to come near him as he was enveloped in a wall of destructive wind. Inuka rode easily on the draft of the wind, piercing enemy undead forces randomly. He continued walking the measure, as he neared the alter, a line of mages stood before him. The mages were led by Kurok, the general of Draco Tribe.

Kurok has his hood held up and his cloak opened against his scaly chest harness with diamon studded harness that acts like his armour, in his hands, he had twin sabre drawn against Kaze and had all the mages ready for the battle against him. Kaze watched with fury in his eyes and dispelled the wall, a sure sign for accepting the challenge. Kaze planted his staff in the ground and a dome of fire sprang up from the ground, encompassing him, Inuka and Kurok. He is determined that in this battle, no one would be allowed to interfere, not even the mages.

There, the dream vision abruptly stopped with the first light of dawn breaking across the skies. Kaze woke up with a foreboding feeling that he has never felt before in the previous visions he had. Somehow, the vision felt like he would be facing death very soon. He sat up on his bed and stepped onto the warm carpet of sheep skin he found within the keeps during his first few days in the keep. Even though he felt the warmth of the carpet, nothing could warm the chill that grips his heart as he thought of the feeling his visions gave him. Inuka perched quietly in the corner deep in his sleep. Kaze has long learnt to block out his emotions so that he would not wake his companion. Kaze gingerly walked over to the window and opened it to the lush view of greenary and the river enveloped by the soft dawn lights. The picture in front of him was all peaceful and serene that he could not believe that war will be coming upon the lands. He cast his presence out into the peaceful dawn and soared with the early birds riding on the first winds of autumn. From his vantage point, he saw the mass of destruction from the nearby lands. The very place of his birth lay in ruins. Death lay everywhere and whatever remaining sanity left of the survivors were lost in the winds. Even though he was exiled from the Shephards Tribe, he had nonetheless lived there for all his childhood. The sight chilled him greatly and he let out a howl of anguish and slid back to his physical form, tears sliding down his face as the grief of losing his kin in the destruction washed over him. He vowed to root out the Draco Tribe and bring an end to this endless destruction and killing.