Sianz....

Dunno why so sianz today, dunno why i felt so much like giving up on the YCF dance choreography thing... its like i'm so tired lo.. so tired of having to think so much, so tired of responsibility.... This whole week i won't get to see him again...
I miss him so much, how i wish i can be with him everyday of my life lo.. but that is not possible since we are not married yet... i really yearn for the day we can spend the rest of our days together lo....

I noe living together is not going to be easy because we got alot of diff habits when at home and i'm starting to see all his bad habits at home liao, nonetheless, i still can accept him for who he is, but of coz, i'm trying to neutralize all his bad habits lo... nagging at him seems to work alittle, but its silly coz i have to always nag at him then he will go and do it... Haiz, dear ah dear, when will u ever be automatic ne?

I now feel very very melancholic lar, i just hope i won't lapse back into my occasional depression again... I can become very very pessimistic whenver i lapse into depression... you see, i have high expectations of life for myself and if i cannot hit my expectations, i will lapse into depression and shy away from society, i will lapse into my lone ranger mode de lo... it has happened so so often... sigh... who can save me from my problem? no one but my ownself.... sigh.... Really hate it man.. hate it downright....

- Himeno

Kaze sat in front of the window facing the vast ocean and the night sky twinkling with stars. Its been years since he left his home in the Shepherds Tribe. Ever since then, he had been living with Inuka who made sure he was well fed and also taught him the ways of the Falconer. He also taught him how to harness his main Gift for good use and nutured his other weaker Gifts. Through scrying, he managed to see the future that was in Himeno's dream and also he got to know that Himeno is his soul mate. Having Himeno's image deeply carved into his mind, he thought abt her day and night and eventually fell in love with her. "Thinking about her again I see..." sounded a male voice in Kaze's mind. "My mind is always full of her thoughts." Kaze replied with a tinge of sadness in his thoughts. "Don't worry my Kaze, you will get to see her soon enough. Remember your scrying? She is your soul mate, have faith my boy." Inuka said with confidence and assurance. Kaze took his sights away from the night scenery beyond the window and looked at Inuka, "Thanks Inuka, but have you thought, the battle sight, that building, what are they? What is my role in that battle? What is my destiny? Inuka, can you tell me more? Its like, I cannot understand the sight and its significance at all." "Kaze, you know why i came to you? I've been asleep for the past seventeen years, i was awaken to the sight and to your destiny. You are the Falconers Tribe protector and next chieftain. Although you are not born in the Falconers Tribe, you have the blood of the falconer running in your veins. Moreover, this destiny is yours only to fulfill." Inuka said with great compassion and understanding. Kaze kept his silence and changed his sight back to the night scenary beyond the window, thinking about what Inuka has just said to him, My destiny only.... His thoughts swung back to the girl in his dreams....